after our exchanges yesterday, i thought today would be the day i'd get to see you again. i've never felt lovesick before. i convinced myself not to go to your house last night and bang on your door till you kissed me. you need space and i can't trust my instincts anymore. i'm trying to be cool and everything tells me i love you. a consoling friend said to me that this will make good song fodder. i don't want to write songs. i want to wash your back. and for you to wash mine. and to see that pulsing circle again.

solid tude

my new age friends put crystals in their asses when they masturbate.
there are horses in a stable across the street.
in a multi-panelled mirror
with gold-emblazed floral brackets separating squares,
long-billed fish curled into the corner
they rub their slime on the wall
and ruby eggs slide through their docile mouths.

the water outside is covered.
the last of the snow is gathered at it's entrance.
under the tarp, a stolid punch of wetness. air for the bacteria party.
dead eyes for no remember food.

in an unnamed ritual we invoke our desperation plea
that leaves our wretches on the cherry tree
oh lustful in and as the sap.
every place a church of something

regarding the record

it's not sarcastic, it's based in sincere sentiment
it speaks of the accumulation and paradox of gross ambiguities.
in the narcoleptic search for uncut vessels
through which to propel ourselves,
we sigh to the goneaway destination of a clearer time

live from the spectacle: Cartoon Incest

how did we get here?

cartoon incest

The Importance of Being Earnest, a gchat with ryan

me: we just need one, semi well off, reasonably sized country to love us madly

Ryan: like Uganda

that would be scary
me: or mozambique

i like that name

mozambique

it flows nicely

Ryan: can you imagine if we got supported by an evil regime?

me: yeah, invoked as the sardonic posterboys of capitalist depravity

a reason to move to fascism

gimme money

ha

Ryan: and then students rebel against us
me: oh man

fuck education

everyone needs a boss

bigger the boss the better your life

suits for everyone though

we're the antirevolution
Ryan: love it

i'll make some posters tomorrow

coffee mugs, stationery

a post-penis world

Parthenogenesis (growth and development of an embryo or seed without fertilization by a male) occurs in some fishes, several kinds of insects, and a few species of frogs and lizards. Then there was Kyuga, the fatherless mouse.
Do the math: Lesbian/post-sexual space colony!


"Wichita, KS - Sedgwick County Zoo has become the first zoo in the Americas to document that Komodo dragons are capable of parthenogenesis (reproduction without the contribution of a male). One Komodo dragon entered the world on January 31 and a second hatched on February 1, 2008 thanks to this type of asexual reproduction."


and now back to genesis p-orridge with today's weather:

purportapus

purportapus (n): sea mammalian incarnation of unsophisticated intention's tendency towards folly